WE GOT IT!!!!

Well, feeling alot better now....sorry for my last blog! I was incredibly disappointed and negative! But only a few hours after blogging, and with a wave of positive thinking, the Agent rang us....He said vendors final offer and we accepted, after a little bartering, lol! Have signed the contracts and are just waiting for the deposit bond to come through!!! YAY!!! They have put the move in date as Feb 25th, maybe sooner... Can't believe it... our own home, with a pool, how exciting!!! We have got everything we need for the house, except a mop and bucket lol...Got a gorgeous package deal from Fantastic Furniture, and iam soooo stoked to be able to add my little touches to OUR HOME!!!! :> :> :> My Fiance has made me the Official Decorater, lol and he is the Official Landscaper hehe... I wanna get a Balinese/Oriental/Modern style happening...
Its crazy to think we are doing this, i never thought 2years ago id have met the man of my dreams, be engaged, and buying a house...WOW how things surprise us...when we least expect it!!! Would be sooo good to be in the house now with this heat wave...bring it on, lazy days by the pool with a cocktail in hand hehehe... But iam also going to start doin aqua aerobics in the pool too...will be awesome, haven't swam in soooo many years, and i used to love it, so looking forward to getting back into it!
Only just over a month til i go for my Consult with Dr Munro...getting soo excited and nervous...hoping i get a date then.
So im curious....to all my bloggers who have been married, what song did u choose for ur Bridesmaids to walk down the aisle to? Can't find anything i like....wouldn't mind something instrumental, with a bit of beat, not too slow, not too fast lol...im going to walk down to "All For Love"- Bryan Adams,Sting & Rod Stewart....any ideas, suggestions would be sooo appreciated!!! I know we aren't goin to get hitched for a while but would like to start gathering ideas... hehehe, Lil Miss Organised LMAO :p
Oh i almost forgot, i have booked in for Glamour Pics with my Fiance and i in March, should be awesome, we wanted something nice of us to hang on the wall in our new house, and something to celebrate out Engagement :) Am lookin forward to it, but kinda feel weird too, cause of all the weight iv put on in 2yrs! But i think/hope they will turn out ok, well hopefully HOT lol... But it will also be a good thing, cause i can look back on them after being Banded and see how far i have come! Will post them when we get em!
So far 2009 has started off rather well, with only a few tiny bumps, and i'am starting to believe 09 really will be MY year!!! :>
Am going to post pics of our new home and furniture soon :>
I was recently told this by a wise man & it really stuck with me....

"You Only Live Once, You Only Die Once...So Make The Most Of In Between"

What a let down!!!

So we got the building/pest inspection report, house itself was sound but the backyard had a few major probs, the retaining wall around the pool has failed and needs replacing, the drainage in the yard is inadequate and need re doing, atleast 10k worht of work to be done, so we told them we would take the house for 15k less, they came back with 5k less, FUCK!!!! Am sooo disheartened!!! I know whats meant to be will be, and there are plenty of other houses out there, but am sick of hearing that, i know! Its just sooo hard when u get so close and u love the house then u don't get it....well we will know soon if we have, we put back another offer of 10k off the house, but i know in my gut they wont take it...and the real estate is pushing us to buy, so he can get his damn commission, grrrrrr... just don't know where to go from here! Guess we walk away if they won't drop! If that is the case we will be taking a break from house hunting for a while, im over it! :(
So iv had a massive headache for like 2days now and can hardly eat, good thing i don't have my band yet hey! My psorisis is sooo bad in my hair at the moment and i need a massage like u wouldnt believe! So much for positive vibes!
I know im sooo negative at the moment but i have used up all my positive vibes, meh, whatever...
So will post later with the result, but i already know what it is!!!

Fingers, toes, EVERYTHING crossed

Well its all happening...............
We put an offer in on the house we loved....Owners were pretty stubborn, wouldnt budge off 300k, but we got em down a few K's so happy with that...Looks like we have got it!!!! Pending inspection results tomorrow from builder, we will know where we are at, if all is ok, we have a ourselves our first home!!!! YAY!!!! And its got a pool!!! Im trying so hard not to get too excited til its finalised but i cant help it lol, its our Home i can feel it.... It better be! lol.
Maybe i was a little sheltered and nieve about how stressful house hunting and buying was going to be...Well iv been super stressed and snappy, as has fiance...Understandable though with the house and all the family shit goin on at the moment!
Went and watched my mate get glamour pics today, her and her kids looked stunning!!! Then went to Yummy Cha for the 2nd time in a week, very naughty, but sooo damn good! Was great to just hang out with mates, and have girly days.
Well iv started a few of my New Years Reso's....and am happy to say that it feels great!!!
I don't have much to say really,just got house on the brain lol...but will hopefully be posting a great blog tomorrow...saying WE GOT IT! :> :> :>
Hope everyone will keep everything crossed for me and send good vibes my way ;)

Whats goin on people????

So iv done it! Iv booked into for my first consultation with Dr Munro, YAY, hopefully i will get my surgery date on the day, i couldn't get in til March 10th, but made sure i got put on the cancellations list lol, even rang back to check i was on it. Its quite exciting because it means the ball has started to roll and im on my way to being happier and healthier, ohhh and thinner might i add!
Still house hunting, yes STILL...we have found 3 we liked but when i rang to view them all of the vendors had decided to take it off market and rent it for 12months til the house prices go back up again, can't say i blame them, but god dammit, can't someone up top give us a break!!! And they all had pools so i could go swimming without feeling embarassed or like a beached whale lol.
So what has happened to all my support people/blog followers??? No comments or blogs to read, hmmm come on people, hehe!
Well the family shit has hit the fan, and i feel like im doing a great job in distancing myself from it all and still remaining supportive and close to my family...though at times i can't help but think about it and worry, YES im a stress head! LOL... but thats what family are for to support and love unconditionally, right?!
Iv been feeling sooo tired and unmotivated lately,went for blood tests to see if everything was ok...sugar,insulin,cholesterol,vit B etc all great but she put it down to my PCOS, said that alone can make u tired,lethargic etc... Just haven't felt myself lately and i think lifes stresses, works shit etc has knocked me for six... But i'll be back on my feet soon enough! "JUST KEEP SWIMMING, SWIMMING, SWIMMING lmao!!! :>
So i don't have alot to say but i hope all u fellow bloggers out there are doing well and still reading my blogs :)

YAY 2009!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all !!! Hope everyone had a safe and happy NYE, and 2009 is starting off well... My NYE was FANTASTIC, spent it in Sydney at my mums work,on a multi million dollar property/mansion, right on the harbour, we could see the whole city and the bridge, was funny trying to watch my swearing with all the Posho's hehehe...it was so beautiful to spend it with my family and my Fiance...The Fireworks were UNBELIEVABLE, such a sight to see, so close up WOW!...We stayed up and watched the sun rise over the city...was a great way to see in the New Year! :>
Iv decided 09 is MY year! A new me, engagement party, hopefully a new home, and so much more....The possibilities are exciting, nerve racking, and endless!!! I cannot wait to get my Band/ my PAMMY hehe, its the first step towards a happier, healthier, and more out going and confident me, and i can't wait to meet the woman that has been hiding inside all these years...Though i will admit the thought of seeing myself slimmer is daunting because i have NEVER been slim, iv been overweight since i was a child and have suffered ridicule all my life, which hasn't helped with my low self esteem, but i can see myself emerging slowly, just with the notion that iam getting banded and have found my answer, my team mate and my hope, all in a little silicone band lol... No more hiding and feeling ashamed and uncomfy with me and my body...NO MORE!!!
And i think it will help my relationship, because being happy with me can only improve my relationship with myself and my man...u think?

So here are my Resolutions for 2009...

*Quit smoking!
*Love MYSELF more!
*Get my Pammy (band)!
*Lose ATLEAST 30kgs this year!
*Be more Active!
*Get out more, with friends etc!
*Start a Savings Account !
*Have more SEX hehe!
*Put me first!

Iv never really been one to make New Years Resolutions or stick to them, but this year is going to be very different, i'am determined to put my best foot forward and strive to stick to and smash my resolutions out of the water...Because i owe it to myself to do it!!!
I have also decided that i'am going to distance myself from my family drama's that are going to make this year a tad rocky, to say the least, but i will still be there for my family but am not going to get involved because it will only make it hard when things finally blow over... Plus we are a strong family and will pull through it fine, im hoping!
So i feel different this year already, just more hopeful, positive, driven and inspired...And ready to throw out the OLD and in with the NEW! :)
Also a HUGE THANKU to all my Blog followers and fellow Bloggers for all ur advice, help ,support and kind words throughout 08 and look forward to following more blogs and seeing more people follow mine :)