Fill Me Up Buttercup!!!

Well im starting to notice my appetite increasing, quite alot...And some bad old habits are still lingering as well!


The habit of late night snacks after work, last night i had 2x mini chrunchies and 1x mini mars bar when i got home from work...It troubled me a little at first but you know what...Iv had these habits for 24years and they aren't about to just disappear because i have my Pammy, it will be a process and something i have to work on.


I know it's mainly habit, but it has to stop!


Im doing really well so i don't wanna focus soley on the negative and what im not doing so well on...i WILL get there! :)


People are also starting to notice, and it's more the men that are saying something about how well i look etc, It's doing wonders for my self esteem and helping me to keep on track.


I have my moments where i slip and i try not to beat myself up about it though...Just make tomorrow a new day!


So today im 28 days post op and my first Fill is at 2:10pm today...I decided to watch You Tube Uploads of a Band Fill, maybe not the best idea iv had, they looked darn painful and some Doctors took upto 5mins to locate the port :s which didn't look like the most pleasant experience LOL, but the people swear blind it doesn't really hurt... Feedback appreciated people hehe.


Im not a big sook but i don't like the idea of being a pin cushion either, but im sure i will be fine and it will be nothing bad, cause you can feel my port very easily so should be a bullseye LOL. Im looking forward to having a Fill and seeing and feeling the difference it makes in my hunger and portion sizes.




Iv also noticed that the "Mind Hunger" is the hardest thing to overcome, eating for the sake of it, because your bored, happy, sad, etc, it's very much a sub concious thing and it's a hard habit to break. Being aware is key though! Im starting to realise!


I think my main thing is not comparing myself to others progress or where i thought id be...I keep looking at how much iv lost and thinking is that enough, should it be more, etc??? But i have to look at how far iv come and keep focused on that!

So another thing is iv also noticed my periods seem to be more regular with just losing the weight i have, which is great, especially for someone who has never had a "normal" cycle in all her life! I can only imagine the other health benefits i will gain from having my Pammy :)

Im starting to think about the future also, especially getting married...Told my man and my mum that when i hit a size 16 im going wedding dress shopping, just to try some on and have a fun girly day...which isn't that far away, im in a size 20 now! :)

I have got to start being more consistent with my Food Diaries, one day i do them the next day i forget. They are such a great help and a good point of reference, it's confronting at times to see what your daily food intake is, if you are honest! LOL

Ok so this blog has been in the "process" for almost 2days now LOL...I went for my First Fill today, but didn't get it LOL.
Dr Munro was very happy with my progress and he said to me that i was in a good place, with my eating, hunger and weight loss and i didn't feel all that ready for one to be honest, so we both agreed that 2 weeks, sept 14th i shall be Filled hehe :)
In the mean time im planning better meals and making the most of the next 2 weeks, before i go back to see him, plenty of salads, healthy snacks, and starting to walk the dogs...So i get myself into "The Zone" before i have my Fill.
Hope people are still reading my blogs and enjoying them... More Food Diaries to come :)

"It's not the Destination...It's the Journey that counts"

Driven.....

So iv had a great weekend! I went back to work on Friday and i have to say i never thought id be happy to go back to work LOL...But i couldn't handle sitting still anymore and being able to socialise and be productive again is Fabulous!!! :)
It's quite amusing though, that even after being away for 3weeks, nothing has really changed.

People at work are making comments about how good, happy and healthy i look and they can see the change already, which is boosting me even more...aside from the fact i feel great, have alot more energy and my knees don't hurt as much as before (especially after a long shift) which is such a great start and it makes me excited for more kilos to drop off and my health, confidence and body image to grow! :)

I should have ordered a smaller uniform though (we were measured for them before i was Banded) because now it swims on me LOL. Oh well, that's a first for me and i love it hehe.

As for all my other clothes, they now swim on me, i have 2pairs of pants that fit me and i pulled out my Pre-Fiance clothes that no longer fitted me and they are now loose!!! Lol...So i may go Op Shopping soon and try to snag some cheapies to get me through for a while, lord knows i need them (but who's complaining)!!!

My Man and i and some mates have decided to join a gym, it's $15 a week, all classes, passes to 2 pools,a trainer and no locked in contract. So i shall give myself another month to pick up and recover fully then I'm hitting the gym and toning up this hot bod LMAO!!! ;),

Plus it will give my Man and i something to do together, when we can and make us both feel better about ourselves and give each other support and encouragement. I actually miss the gym so it will be great for me...

The thing is as I'm losing my weight I'm realising more and more it's not just about the "NUMBER" or what you look like, it's how you see yourself and feel about yourself, it's about becoming healthy and happy and feeling inspired within yourself, it's about making choices that benefit and drive you, not hinder you!

So I'm anticipating that this Journey iv embarked on will have me learning more about myself and my views then ever before!

I'm becoming more comfy with my port and feeling it under my skin, it freaked me out a tad a first LOL, just knowing something was there and being able to FEEL it sooo easily was a shock, but I'm liking it now lol....Its a part of me forever and Pammy's companion hehehe,

Have let a few friends feel it and they think it's pretty cool.
On the nipple front, all is good, healing well,looking great and i so wanna play with it hehe, not to mention my Fiance is chomping at the bit to have a touch etc.... ;), I want my other nipple done now though...piercings are so addictive for me LOL!

DAY 19

125ml Berocca
250ml Opti Shake
4 x Cruskits & Vegemite
1 cup Zucchini Slice
1 Jelly fruit cup
1 WW ice cream
850ml water

I'm also noticing that keeping track of what I'm eating allows me to have more control and to be aware of what I'm eating and how much...Iv found the last few days i have forgotten to eat at certain stages and it bothered me a little, not a good habit to form and it's mainly because i haven't felt hungry really, which is new and odd for me (but a great feeling)!

But I'm back on track and putting pen to paper, even bought myself a little notebook to carry with me, so no excuses!

Iv also noticed my hunger increasing slightly, as in the amounts i can eat...I'm not worried but it's a strange and surreal feeling to notice your food habits and knowing in myself when to STOP!!! I'm loving it! Though i know i will continue to learn from my mistakes and triumphs it's just a great feeling to feel like things are looking up and that I CAN & WILL do this, for none other than MYSELF! :)

Did i mention I'm getting my first Fill on September first, ironic huh, first Fill on the 1st LOL...I'm excited to see how it changes things. Not sure how much they add at first though???

Well I'm actually at work (it's sooooo DEAD) lol, so i guess i should go do some then hey hehehe.

I absolutely adore reading the comments left for me and would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to EVERYONE who is supporting me and enjoying following my journey! :)

Up and Down...

So iv had an up and down few days, mainly due to me not knowing when to STOP and take it easy!!! I think i overdid it at the car Rally on sunday and was in alot of pain early monday morning.... Im just sooo thankful i had my gorgeous man there to take care of me and he did, so well!!! :)
So iv been taking it easy all day today, not more running around doing shit, just plenty of rest! Especially cause im going back to work on Friday, and im not looking forward to it, after 3weeks off! Eeeeeeeeeeek LOL!
Im able to eat more, but don't think im eating enough though??? I tried Cruskits today and OMG, they are a god send, go down easy and give u a little healthy carbs, yummy with cream cheese and red onion n ham :> hehe.
So officially 14 days Post Op, this is todays consumption...(iv been slacking off on the food diaries, but getting back on track, for my own good) Lol....


Day 14

125ml Berocca
200ml Coffee
350ml Up & Go
4 Cruskits with L/F Cream cheese, ham n onion
Approx 1 cup Shepards Pie
1 WW ice cream
600ml water

I know i really need to up my fluid intake and drink more water, just forget at times lol...
Felt my port yesterday for the first time, kinda freaked me out a smidge, didn't expect to be able to feel it soooo easily, and its an odd feeling feeling something foreign inside u LOL... I love blood and gore but for some reason it kinda grossed me out LMAO :o
So i really don't have much to say people......One of those days....

I Did it!!! hehehe

Iv had a rather eventful day, i did it...I got my nipple pierced today...and it looks FABULOUS hehehe!!! I loved it too...was quick, and very painless, is more tender now that im braless lol and my shirt feels like sandpaper on it haha lmao!!!
Im just proud i did it, was something iv wanted for years and i finally did it :) Im obviously becoming more confident already and it's sooo FANTASTIC!
So i spent a few hours with my mate and her Gf, was fun and just mad to goof around and hang...Oh and i also picked up my engagement ring from the jewellers, it was getting cleaned and inspected for warranty, and looks ohhhh so shiney and new again :) I felt naked without it!
Im also starting to see and look forward to the future more and more especially getting married to my gorgeous Fiance and looking so forward to being a hot bride hehehe ;)
Todays intake....

DAY 11

125ml Berocca
250ml Opti Shake
500ml Water
350ml Boost L/F Smoothie
Approx 1-1/4cup soft Pasta
1/2cup fruit salad & WW ice cream

I know i was bad today, not enough fluids!!! LOL

Im doing some kind of charity rally thing tomorrow with my family, it's like a clue hunt and u go to check points and get points etc, sounds like fun anywho lol...Plus we are locals, got an advantage :),
Ok im off to have a shower and bathe my nipple hehehe and hit the sack for the big day tomorrow!!! ;) I will also remember to pack healthy snacks for myself, BE PREPARED! lol..

Content....

So it's Day 10 and im feeling soooo much better, and brighter in myself... Been getting out and about more, seein my mates and shops, not too much but just enough to get me doing something new and different.... And keep my sanity! Hehehe.
So my consumtion for today people's...

DAY 10

125ml Berocca
250ml Up & Go
250ml Chai Latte
1/2 cup Zuchinni Bake
600ml water (Yay, getting better)
Approx 1cup of soft tortellini with sauce
1/2 cup tin Fruit Salad & 1/4 cup L/F Custard
Freddo frog
200ml Mint Tea

So at the moment feeling very content with what im eating and how im progressing to fuller soft foods, and noticing wholegrain pasta keeps me full for longer...Its great to start to feel more in control of urself and the foods u eat...though i will admit i have noticed old habits trying to creep back in....I say NO!!! LOL...
I was soooo close to getting my Nipple pierced today people on a whim..but am going tomorrow now...Iv always wanted it done but today i just woke up and thought im doin it today :) hehehe i love spontenaity!!!
Am watching the footy now...Hmmm i don't like either team but i love the game so im watchin hehe.
Well it's short and sweet tonight all....Im going to go and chill out...
I gotta get these Pre Op pics posted!!! LOL :),

FREEDOM!!!!

Had quite a good day today people....slept in a little later then i planned, but got up and decided to go to the shoppies LOL. Brought some cool things (impulse purchases :s eeek) lol, got my niece the cutest hoodie (shes 11weeks) :) some incense, new hand towel for the bathroom, and wiper blades :) purple ones hehe.
Was just great to be out and about with the sunroof open and the music blaring! I just love to drive around, anywhere.
Ok so last night i tried about 1/2cup of VERY mushy lasagne, chew chew chewed it and it went down soooo well :) the pasta went down better then the mince ( had to chew it quite alot and lost it's flavour) lol. God it felt so good to just chew and have something other than a liquid LOL!
Im really happy with myself, im doing really well and thought to myself today my mind set has already started to change, im standing taller and holding my head higher each day...It's such an awesome feeling! :)
So today is Day 9, since Pammy and i were united in unholy wedlock from here on out.....

Day 9:

125ml Berocca
200ml Opti shake
Approx-1cup- Zucchini/veg eggy bake thing LOL (like a quiche without the cream and pastry)
1/4 tinned peaches + 1/4 L/F Custard
400ml water
200ml Mint & Green Tea

*Note to self.....Up the fluid intake*

So... tomorrow im going with my Bestie to "try" to play pool up the local, just for an hour or 2...Will be hard without a beer, id love one right now hehe...im not a big drinker, but knowing i can't have one yet is making me want one more LOL. :p
Thanku for all of YOUR supportive, kind, flattering and helpful comments and advice, you all know who you are...Keep em coming!!!
Im rather stoked!!! I tried on some of my old clothes that used to fit me about 3years ago (pre Fiance LOL) but haven't since...My FAV black button up dress thing with my Metal Patches all over it, and to my surprise...IT FIT (was a bit loose actually) :o im sooo happy, and was more happy when i tried on a few other things that were on my regular wearing record, they all fit!!! YAY!
Im now seeing this whole Journey could turn out to be rather expensive... So what! Im worth it!!! hehehe ;),
So im going to keep on updating my blogs more regularly now...for people to read and for my own sanity, helps alot!
I may jump on the scales tomorrow, im trying not to become too obsessive about "THE NUMBER" because i can see and feel that i have lost weight! My collarbones and cheekbones are becoming more prominent, it's Fabulous LOL never knew i had em hehe.
Well im going to relax for a while now and watch some idiot box...
Night all.................

ONE WEEK!!!!

So my first Pre Op visit went very well, i jumped on the scales and im officially 14.2kg down, one week Post Op! Im so very pleased....I know it will slow down but im riding the wave while it's going strong LOL :)
My dietician was very pleased with me and my progress and im finding that the food diary (well liquids at the moment) is a good thing for me, so i can visually see what im putting into my body and to make sure it's adequate,etc.
I also tried a little minestrone soup tonight, about half to 3/4 cup of it, was sooo yummy, and i chew chew chewed,LOL...Felt good to chew a little again!
Am feeling almost ready to start introducing some mushy foods in...Anyone got any ideas of some good mushy food, aside from vegies? LOL.
I got my Pearl Jam & Nickleback tickets today!!! So stoked!!! And by November i will be ready to Rock!!!
Overdid it a little today i think, driving too much too soon maybe...But im just going to take it easy tomorrow, got my good mates coming to see me, so that will be awesome....Good crew! :>
So if i can manage brekky soon, what do most people have...porridge, weet bix, etc???
Go for my first Fill on the 1st of September....Bit nervous but not really.... Hehe.. I took my bandages off today, they are so cute and small, and looking pretty good, i love looking at cuts etc, im a bit of a freak LMAO!
Im off for now...am pretty tired and not much else to tell...So stay tuned! :)

Realisations.......

I had a strange feeling today, it was a mixture of feelings really, of relief, hope, excitement, curiousity and some sorrow....Relief that i have made such an important and monumental decision in my life, for myself, to take control of my life, mind, & body and to LIVE!!!
The sorrow was for the Part of ME that im about to 'leave behind'...Sorrow for the years of taunting, feeling ashamed and embarassed and wanting to hide from the world (though i already felt invisible), of feeling a constant cycle of guilt and shame and anger when i ate, or when people would watch me eat, or when i'd sneak food and hide it as i devoured it ALL, feeling like i was with my "best friend" in the world and nothing could hurt me, food was my emotional "suit of armour" and i used it against myself for all these years, unbeknownst to myself...UNTIL NOW!!!
I know i will always remember the past because it is part of who i'am and part of why i'am where i'am now....but i hope to look back with pride and a huge smile someday soon, knowing iv come such a long way and have grown so much emotionally! :)
Im feeling very emotional (in a good way) and open today.... Can u tell? LOL! It's like iv had a "ligthbulb" moment.
Actually i think i had that moment last night at Mum's, we were watching TV and i went to get some water and without a thought i went to the pantry to look for something to eat.... I kind of stepped back when i realised what i was doing, just based on HABIT, i wasn't even remotely hungry and it really surprised me, that i just went there like a robot! Im glad i realised and have become more conscious of my actions and emotions...Loving it so far! :)
Im sooo excited!!!! Not sure if u all can tell or know, but im a bit, well a HUGE Metal gal (heavy metal music for those who don't know LOL) and im in heaven...My Bestie and i got tix today to see SLAYER & MEGADETH...And im getting tix for my Man and a few mates and my Brother to see NICKLEBACK & PEARL JAM tomorrow :> IM STOKED!!! Now all i need is for METALLICA to tour next year and i will be in Total Bliss!!! Hehehe.
Ok so more exciting news!!! I weighed today, i couldn't help myself, im not worried about it but i knew id lost more, as my clothes are getting loser already....Jumped on the scales, with a full tummy of food and clothes on tonight (i normally weigh in little or nothing at all LOL, shhhhhh) and to my surprise it said 125.5 kilos!!!!
Total loss since starting Opti Fast-July 20th (and getting my "Pammy" 6Days ago-August 4th) 12.1 kilos!!! I know iv got a ways to go yet, but im soooo Proud of myself for being so committed to my new way of living and most importantly myself...I CAN & WILL DO THIS!!!
Almost forgot...I went for a little drive to the video shop today, OMG was it good to get back a little piece of independence and freedom, though i'am a tad sore tonight...baby steps!
Well it's 12:08am people and its OFFICIALLY ONE WEEK Post Op!!! Goes fast!!! And today at 11:30 i have my first Post Op check up, hope im a good student LOL...
Thanks for reading and all ur support and kind words everyone, it really boosts me and makes me smile...
P.S... iv elected for another week off...im not pushing myself too hard too fast! :)

DAY 5.....

God it goes fast after ur Banded...5 days already and im still adjusting to Banded Life. Felt a little tightness and kind of an indigestion feeling, though im still on liquids... and wasn't able to drink as much yesterday either.... Im not stressing butit's all sooo NEW and when u aren't sure whats happening it can be a little scary LOL.
So here is what i consumed for Day 4...

DAY 4:
125ml Berocca
200ml Coffee
100ml L/F Yoghurt
200ml Water
250ml Cuppa Soup
150ml L/f Custard
200ml Mint Tea

I feel like im getting enough fluids, but m sooo over "drinking" give me something to chew, even for just a second LOL... It's odd how well u start to recover when u take time out for YOU, staying at Mum's has made things alot easier on me and given me some breathing room...Gotta LOVE your MUM!!! Im very lucky to have her around me and to be sooo close with her! :)
I don't think my man quite gets it yet, which is ok, it's new for him too...But he just seems to be soo hyper around me and in my face etc, kinda annoying lol, but he's trying so i shut up! He wants me to come home, but im not ready yet, need another day or 2 to rest and revitalise myself and i will go home.
Meant to go back to work saturday but not sure if i should or could, they gave me an 8hr shift in the TAB, on a Saturday (chaos) my first day back and i don't think i would handle it very well, so im thinking i will see how i feel closer to it and maybe ask for a few more days off...because iv only put in for 10days off, so maybe some more... What do u all think???
Iv noticed iv been holding my head higher since my Op, may sound odd but it's like i have this secret weapon that is boosting my confidence with every passing day...I have HOPE now!!! And FAITH, Faith in MYSELF and my capabilities, Faith that I CAN and WILL make this work for ME!!! :>
Ohh i haven't forgotten about my Pre Op pics people, just not sure how to load am up, will have to wait for my buddy B to get her arse over to help me revamp my Blog LOL...New me, new Blog hehe ;) It wasn't until i looked at the pics Mum took that i realised id lost weight already, the 10kgs i lost on Opti really was obvious, even though the pics were kinda hard to look at, i have to "Because u can't see where u are going, if u don't look at where u have been"...
I can't wait to have my old energy levelsback and then some so can be more motivated to do things LOL, but all in good time....iv gotta be patient, not my best asset hehehe...
Im off for a shower and then my Best mate is takin me out for a little while...FREEDOM!!!! hehehe......
Where is everyone??? Miss my comments and feedback etc....Sock it to me Peoples lol...(im such a dag) LMAO!!!

Rough Night...

Ok so thursday night was pretty rough, woke up in quite a bit of pain around 2am, and my man was wanting to take me up the hospital, but some peppermint tea and hot water bottle helped, i think it was the gas pains to be honest, as im kinda irregular LOL... But it was a little off putting.
Iv come to stay at my Mum's for a couple of days, i can't really rest at my house at the moment with everything going on around me and all the stress there, plus having FIL living there at the moment makes it a little harder. Im not being mean,but i just felt right now, a few days away is just what i need, to focus on me, and getting well and rested, call me selfish if u will but sometimes u have to be! Plus Mum has a bath tub :> hehehe.
I feel a little more refreshed today...Had around 8 hours sleep, am siping my morning coffee now,(even though its lunch time lol) and about to jump in a shower and wash my hair and then watch some movies.... RELAX!!! :)
So iv started to keep a "diary" of what im managing to drink on the fluids phase, to make sure im getting enough etc...So here is DAY 3 intake...
DAY 3: 125ml Berocca
250ml Low Fat Drinking Yoghurt
150ml Opti Shake
100ml water
250ml cuppa soup
200ml choc milk
200ml mint tea
4 small squares dark choc (sucked on)
This is what i consumed throughout the entire day, sipping very slowly...Is this too much, not enough??? Feedback and suggestions welcomed :) I plan to have more water now... It's all new and a huge learning curb for me....
Im soooo proud iv taken the first step towards making my life and myself the way i want to be and feel i'am deep down inside....This is something iv done JUST FOR ME, and it feels sooo liberating and fulfilling that i have!!! :>

Easy does it....

Well my fellow Bloggers, its day 2 Post Op and im not feeling too bad, apart from feeling really bloated and wanting to burp or fart but can't LMAO!!! I over did it little yesterday so im just going to slow down and go easy on myself...Be kind to myself, i have put my body through alot the past few days (and over the years)! And now it deserves a rest...
Im managing to drink/sip around 3-4cups of fluid throughout the day at the moment, maybe more, but i just feel sooo full after which is a good but odd feeling lol...I made myself a Opti shake today to sip on so it will give me the nutrients i need as well as some clear soups to have, but iv just gotta go slow...am a little nervous of PBing lol.
My incisions look ok i guess, but are still covered... Go back to Megan(dietician) next week so will be interested to see if she thinks im doing well so far. All of Dr Munro's team are sooo supportive and understanding, its great, would highly recommend them!!!
You know the funny thing is it still feels sooo surreal that im FINALLY Banded!!! I know i have been but im surprised at how im managing so far, i know its very early days but im doing good so far and learning everyday already! :)
Im running low on energy today people so i shall go lay down and watch some girly flicks ;) lol... After a nice hot shower :>

"Pammy" and i are home!!!

Well first day Post Op peoples and happy to say not in too much discomfort, mainly where my Port is is the most tender. I was at the Hospital at 7:30am and in theatre around 8:50am...remember waking up to them pulling the breathing tube out of my throat, was grose feeling LOL.
I can't believe im officially Banded with my (Pammy) :) She shall be my bestest friend from now on lol...All the waiting and now i'am done, my life will be an amazing,learning and self discovery journey for me! And i can't wait to learn and grow and love myself more!!!
Iv got Dvd's coming out my bum lol, thanks to some good mates who are looking after my entertainment needs hehe ;)
Iv had a 1/4 cup of coffee, 1/2 cup apple juice and sips of water so far today...So i take it this stage is anything that will fit through a straw??? Suggestions welcome...Can i have a optifast shake at the moment to sip on n fill me up?
I have some Pre Op pics (in my sexy green & white hosi gown) to put up here when i get a chance and work out how lol....Oh and a weightloss ticker!!!
Im actually very proud of myself for taking the first step to making a better me and a better life...I know i have a long ways to go but im committed 150% to MY PAMMY and MYSELF!!! :)
Thankyou to Dr Munro and all his surgical team and the staff at NGPH, for making my stay and recovery as pleasant as possible :>
Well im going to take some panadol(liquid) and watch some girly movies....
Keep following my progress and watching for new pics, measurements and weight/mind changes :)

Blink & u will miss it....

Well people, i got "the call" today!!! 7:30am at the Hospital tomorrow,OMG, its all soooo REAL now...I have this weird excited,nervous,anxious,happy,relieved, energy running through my veins! :) Plus i think the massage/reiki healing i had done today really helped to relax,centre and ground me, it was Fabulous :> hehe.
So i have my bag packed, my reading and listening material for the hospital and my own pillow to take(i always sleep better with it) LOL. Wasn't sure what to take to wear home, so took a summer dress thing and slippers, or thongs....
Thankyou so very much to everyone with all their supportive comments and words of advice and encouragement, means so much to me!!! :)
I really doubt i will sleep much if at all tonight...But i will try!
I honestly don't have much running through my head at the moment, which is strange for me LOL, i just felt the need to Blog and share what im feeling and to let u all know today is the last day of my life as i know it and tomorrow will be the start of LIFE and my brighter future....My how things will change....for the BETTER!!! :>
Im in my own world at the moment so everyone who is reading, do send me some sexy,happy,skinny well wishes/vibes hehehe ;),
I shall return shortly, with my "Pammy" YAY!!!

Come on Tuesday!!!

I had a really good night at work tonight, i even got a few compliments from my work mates, that i had lost weight and they could see it :> and most of them know im getting Banded so it's good,i have alot of support and people around me and 100% behind me, so it will help me alot!
I think it's finally hit me tonight...that the day iv been waiting for for so long is almost here :)Im getting butterflies in my stomach, more of excitement then anxiety, but i'am a little nervous/anxious...Just want it done LOL...2 DAYS people!!! :o
I weighed in today and i can't believe it...I was 137.6 when i started Opti Fast on the 20th of July and today i'am 127.5 so thats 10kg's,(well 10.1 to be exact lol) GONE, im in total shock!!! I didn't think i could do it,the Shakes that is, but i have and now im READY for the next phase of my journey :>
Iv even noticed my skin is much clearer since iv been on Opti Fast and drinking atleast 2ltr of water a day, plus all the vegies iv been eating, im vegied out LOL!
Im going to measure myself before Tuesday, so i can track my loss in inches as well, so i don't get reliant on my scales lol...
Iv also booked in for a massage on Monday, thought i really NEED and DESERVE one, especially before my surgery. Iv been sooo stressed and anxious and just run down the last few months and even more so these past 2 weeks, i need some ME time!
Got my camera batteries charging so i can get some Pre Op pics of me up on here....if i can work out how to do it... Lol
Night all.....