WE GOT IT!!!!

Well, feeling alot better now....sorry for my last blog! I was incredibly disappointed and negative! But only a few hours after blogging, and with a wave of positive thinking, the Agent rang us....He said vendors final offer and we accepted, after a little bartering, lol! Have signed the contracts and are just waiting for the deposit bond to come through!!! YAY!!! They have put the move in date as Feb 25th, maybe sooner... Can't believe it... our own home, with a pool, how exciting!!! We have got everything we need for the house, except a mop and bucket lol...Got a gorgeous package deal from Fantastic Furniture, and iam soooo stoked to be able to add my little touches to OUR HOME!!!! :> :> :> My Fiance has made me the Official Decorater, lol and he is the Official Landscaper hehe... I wanna get a Balinese/Oriental/Modern style happening...
Its crazy to think we are doing this, i never thought 2years ago id have met the man of my dreams, be engaged, and buying a house...WOW how things surprise us...when we least expect it!!! Would be sooo good to be in the house now with this heat wave...bring it on, lazy days by the pool with a cocktail in hand hehehe... But iam also going to start doin aqua aerobics in the pool too...will be awesome, haven't swam in soooo many years, and i used to love it, so looking forward to getting back into it!
Only just over a month til i go for my Consult with Dr Munro...getting soo excited and nervous...hoping i get a date then.
So im curious....to all my bloggers who have been married, what song did u choose for ur Bridesmaids to walk down the aisle to? Can't find anything i like....wouldn't mind something instrumental, with a bit of beat, not too slow, not too fast lol...im going to walk down to "All For Love"- Bryan Adams,Sting & Rod Stewart....any ideas, suggestions would be sooo appreciated!!! I know we aren't goin to get hitched for a while but would like to start gathering ideas... hehehe, Lil Miss Organised LMAO :p
Oh i almost forgot, i have booked in for Glamour Pics with my Fiance and i in March, should be awesome, we wanted something nice of us to hang on the wall in our new house, and something to celebrate out Engagement :) Am lookin forward to it, but kinda feel weird too, cause of all the weight iv put on in 2yrs! But i think/hope they will turn out ok, well hopefully HOT lol... But it will also be a good thing, cause i can look back on them after being Banded and see how far i have come! Will post them when we get em!
So far 2009 has started off rather well, with only a few tiny bumps, and i'am starting to believe 09 really will be MY year!!! :>
Am going to post pics of our new home and furniture soon :>
I was recently told this by a wise man & it really stuck with me....

"You Only Live Once, You Only Die Once...So Make The Most Of In Between"

What a let down!!!

So we got the building/pest inspection report, house itself was sound but the backyard had a few major probs, the retaining wall around the pool has failed and needs replacing, the drainage in the yard is inadequate and need re doing, atleast 10k worht of work to be done, so we told them we would take the house for 15k less, they came back with 5k less, FUCK!!!! Am sooo disheartened!!! I know whats meant to be will be, and there are plenty of other houses out there, but am sick of hearing that, i know! Its just sooo hard when u get so close and u love the house then u don't get it....well we will know soon if we have, we put back another offer of 10k off the house, but i know in my gut they wont take it...and the real estate is pushing us to buy, so he can get his damn commission, grrrrrr... just don't know where to go from here! Guess we walk away if they won't drop! If that is the case we will be taking a break from house hunting for a while, im over it! :(
So iv had a massive headache for like 2days now and can hardly eat, good thing i don't have my band yet hey! My psorisis is sooo bad in my hair at the moment and i need a massage like u wouldnt believe! So much for positive vibes!
I know im sooo negative at the moment but i have used up all my positive vibes, meh, whatever...
So will post later with the result, but i already know what it is!!!

Fingers, toes, EVERYTHING crossed

Well its all happening...............
We put an offer in on the house we loved....Owners were pretty stubborn, wouldnt budge off 300k, but we got em down a few K's so happy with that...Looks like we have got it!!!! Pending inspection results tomorrow from builder, we will know where we are at, if all is ok, we have a ourselves our first home!!!! YAY!!!! And its got a pool!!! Im trying so hard not to get too excited til its finalised but i cant help it lol, its our Home i can feel it.... It better be! lol.
Maybe i was a little sheltered and nieve about how stressful house hunting and buying was going to be...Well iv been super stressed and snappy, as has fiance...Understandable though with the house and all the family shit goin on at the moment!
Went and watched my mate get glamour pics today, her and her kids looked stunning!!! Then went to Yummy Cha for the 2nd time in a week, very naughty, but sooo damn good! Was great to just hang out with mates, and have girly days.
Well iv started a few of my New Years Reso's....and am happy to say that it feels great!!!
I don't have much to say really,just got house on the brain lol...but will hopefully be posting a great blog tomorrow...saying WE GOT IT! :> :> :>
Hope everyone will keep everything crossed for me and send good vibes my way ;)

Whats goin on people????

So iv done it! Iv booked into for my first consultation with Dr Munro, YAY, hopefully i will get my surgery date on the day, i couldn't get in til March 10th, but made sure i got put on the cancellations list lol, even rang back to check i was on it. Its quite exciting because it means the ball has started to roll and im on my way to being happier and healthier, ohhh and thinner might i add!
Still house hunting, yes STILL...we have found 3 we liked but when i rang to view them all of the vendors had decided to take it off market and rent it for 12months til the house prices go back up again, can't say i blame them, but god dammit, can't someone up top give us a break!!! And they all had pools so i could go swimming without feeling embarassed or like a beached whale lol.
So what has happened to all my support people/blog followers??? No comments or blogs to read, hmmm come on people, hehe!
Well the family shit has hit the fan, and i feel like im doing a great job in distancing myself from it all and still remaining supportive and close to my family...though at times i can't help but think about it and worry, YES im a stress head! LOL... but thats what family are for to support and love unconditionally, right?!
Iv been feeling sooo tired and unmotivated lately,went for blood tests to see if everything was ok...sugar,insulin,cholesterol,vit B etc all great but she put it down to my PCOS, said that alone can make u tired,lethargic etc... Just haven't felt myself lately and i think lifes stresses, works shit etc has knocked me for six... But i'll be back on my feet soon enough! "JUST KEEP SWIMMING, SWIMMING, SWIMMING lmao!!! :>
So i don't have alot to say but i hope all u fellow bloggers out there are doing well and still reading my blogs :)

YAY 2009!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all !!! Hope everyone had a safe and happy NYE, and 2009 is starting off well... My NYE was FANTASTIC, spent it in Sydney at my mums work,on a multi million dollar property/mansion, right on the harbour, we could see the whole city and the bridge, was funny trying to watch my swearing with all the Posho's hehehe...it was so beautiful to spend it with my family and my Fiance...The Fireworks were UNBELIEVABLE, such a sight to see, so close up WOW!...We stayed up and watched the sun rise over the city...was a great way to see in the New Year! :>
Iv decided 09 is MY year! A new me, engagement party, hopefully a new home, and so much more....The possibilities are exciting, nerve racking, and endless!!! I cannot wait to get my Band/ my PAMMY hehe, its the first step towards a happier, healthier, and more out going and confident me, and i can't wait to meet the woman that has been hiding inside all these years...Though i will admit the thought of seeing myself slimmer is daunting because i have NEVER been slim, iv been overweight since i was a child and have suffered ridicule all my life, which hasn't helped with my low self esteem, but i can see myself emerging slowly, just with the notion that iam getting banded and have found my answer, my team mate and my hope, all in a little silicone band lol... No more hiding and feeling ashamed and uncomfy with me and my body...NO MORE!!!
And i think it will help my relationship, because being happy with me can only improve my relationship with myself and my man...u think?

So here are my Resolutions for 2009...

*Quit smoking!
*Love MYSELF more!
*Get my Pammy (band)!
*Lose ATLEAST 30kgs this year!
*Be more Active!
*Get out more, with friends etc!
*Start a Savings Account !
*Have more SEX hehe!
*Put me first!

Iv never really been one to make New Years Resolutions or stick to them, but this year is going to be very different, i'am determined to put my best foot forward and strive to stick to and smash my resolutions out of the water...Because i owe it to myself to do it!!!
I have also decided that i'am going to distance myself from my family drama's that are going to make this year a tad rocky, to say the least, but i will still be there for my family but am not going to get involved because it will only make it hard when things finally blow over... Plus we are a strong family and will pull through it fine, im hoping!
So i feel different this year already, just more hopeful, positive, driven and inspired...And ready to throw out the OLD and in with the NEW! :)
Also a HUGE THANKU to all my Blog followers and fellow Bloggers for all ur advice, help ,support and kind words throughout 08 and look forward to following more blogs and seeing more people follow mine :)

So Up & Down...

Hope everyone had a lovely Chrissy and got spoiled.... I know i did... :) I got Singstar, am so stoked, hehe I am such a wannabe singer lmao!
Had the in laws up from Chrissy Day til sunday(today) my mother in law did my head in, so rude, anti social and nasty, made me feel soooo uncomfortable in my pwn home!!! Iv never felt that way around someone before, i kept trying and trying to make an effort to talk to her, make conversation, make her feel at home, but she gave me nothing back, not even a smile, and i would catch her staring at me! By sunday i was totally over making an effort and when they left i told my fiance how i felt, he was like its not you, its my mum, shes like that with everyone, don't take it personally! But i can't help but feel it is personal, she will be mopey and sour when its just her and i or my family and her, then when my man comes into the room she is all smiles, and happy, so two faced...When he was out of the room, his mum and i were making chit chat and i said something like "yeh he's my baby, I love him" and she turned to me and said, "well he is MY baby" but in a really mean and cold tone...i was shocked.
I think i may be coming across as a bitch, hope not..... lol....just a sticky situation, and my fiance and i were arguing about it, then i thought im not going to argue over his mum and let her come between us!!! Am i wrong to feel this way? Any tips or advice would be happily welcomed!!!???
Now i know everyones been busy with Chrissy but why hasn't ANYONE left me a comment? :( im feeling like no one is interested in my blogs anymore!? God im a sook haha!
Can't believe how excited iam to be getting closer to getting my Band ("Pammy"), 2009 is going to bring such a new and amazing journey and iv actually surprised myself in telling a few more people about getting Banded, and have not had a bad reaction yet... Though my brother recommended i check out some similar procedure that uses bubbles to squish the stomach and has same effect but it isnt clamped around ur stomach so apparently better...anyone know what he is talking about? i couldn't find it cause he didn't know what it was called??? Anyone heard of the stomach being erroded from a Band? thats my only main concern...
Splurged a little over chrissy and got sooo much damn choccy, i was thinking oh geez thanks, r u trying to make me fatter! LOL so im trying to give them to good homes... Getting back on track though, not really stressing anymore.
Am going to start my Diabex tomorrow for my Insulin Resistance and PCOS my Doc said that is probably why iam so tired and run down all the time, my cells aren;t getting the sugar they need and i think she may be right! So will get back on them and see what happens and also hope the side effects don't come back with em.
I hope everyone is enjoying their holidays and are keeping happy and safe!!! All the BEST for 2009...may it be a happy, fulfilling, and eventful New year for each of you and i hope all ur dreams,wants and needs come true!!!!

HO HO F**King Ho

Well i haven't blogged for a while...have been flat out with work, shopping and an endless mountain of presents to wrap...eeek where is Santa when u need him hahaha!!!??? ;), Alot has been goin on, we put an offer in on a house, and nearly had it, but the agent kept screwing us around and giving us false info, so we missed out, was disappointed but there will be more houses out there... just hope we find one soon as the thrill of house hunting is losing appeal fast lol.
My fiance is selling his boat tomorrow, its his baby but we don't use it much around here and it is a ski boat so its not really practical for this area but it is his/our baby, and i told him to think really hard about selling it and not to if he wasn't sure, and his response was he wants to sell it to pay off his debts, so we can get into a house quicker and i thought that was incredibly sweet!!! we can get a fishing/skiing boat down the track... he is such a sweeti. And i know how lucky i'am....
Am kinda over Chrissy already, so much stress, rushing around and not to mention money, its just excessive....i sound like such a humbug hehe. Im sure i will enjoy Christmas day with my family, well whats left of my family, everyone is at each others throats for reasons i can't quite say, but i will say that certain members of my family won't be in the same room with each other EVER again, which is sooo sad and i feel in the middle and am trying to remain neutral but its not really happening! I hope things work out and they can put aside their differences in the near future... Seems almost everyone has family dramas this time of year lol strange!
As for my eating habits, well lets not go there, i will say this though i have never ate so much Macca's as i have this week, just cause of being so so busy and never home...Bad Nikki Bad!!! Back on track again after Chrissy though... Oh and i'am going to try my hardest to give up smoking in the New Year, for my health, to save money and for my upcoming Banding!!!
Still staring at my ring, my engagement ring that is hahahahaha! ;>, i'am also starting to look for reception venues, dresses, invite ideas etc so i have a ideas for when we decide to set a date, which we r both thinking won't be for about 2-3yrs, til we get settled into a house, save some $ and i get banded and on my way to my goal weight, then we will set a date.... Which im quite happy with, because i want to feel so damn sexy and glamorous on our wedding day and i know losing some weight will be a major factor in that!
Am spending NYE in sydney, right on the harbour at my mums work to watch the BIG fireworks show....am soo looking forward to it, it's my first NYE off in like 4 or 5 years, bring it on hehe.... Am really looking forward to a New Year with new beginnings, adventures and fun....and most of all a NEW ME!
I hope everyone has an Incredible,safe and Happy Chrissy and New Year and all the best for 2009..... see u in the New Year :)